The 39 - A Prologue - Day 1

I am thirty nine years old today.  It's a point of departure.  A time for reevaluation.  Self-exploration and for contemplating how I got here and where I go from here.

I could have kept the same name for this blog but it serves a slightly different function to the other blogs.  I have resolved to continue to keep writing the other blogs as and when I choose to do so.  'Doing The LOP' will continue in particular as I have so much more to do with that idea.

The 39 as I will colloquially refer to this year will be tied up to a variety of concepts, themes and emotions.  It started with a passing reference someone made when I mentioned how old I would be.  He reference 'The 39 Steps' which will become relevant at some point this year.

This year will be a year of random creative endeavours, personal endeavours.  Some things I will reveal, some I won't.  Most of what we do in life is linked whether we choose to admit it or not.  I will shortly create a list of possibilities, not resolutions as anything that seems final and inhibiting is not allowed.  I want to see where I can go when I do not hold myself back.  I can be goal orientated in more ways than I have chosen to understand.

I want to continue learning.  The things that were once important to me are still important to me.  The friends and acquaintances I have met over the years are still relevant and empowering to me and I hope that they still feel that I hold some value for them.  Friendship, love and positivity are all necessary factors in life.  They help us grow.

Growth is the key word at the moment.  Some of it, I will share if it inspires me.  If it doesn't, I will act like it never existed.  In case, you are wondering, I want everyone to be involved.  How and what may become clearer.  The 'Why?' I have hopefully partially revealed.

I want to move on in many areas of my life and that will involve me opening myself up a little.  I will no longer accept second best for other people and myself.  Being understood has always been one of my needs but as I have got older, I appreciate that this takes many forms.  I would rather be seen and accepted than understood and I am glad that I have met people who have helped me to reach this point.

I am excited for the first time in ages, so where to go from here?  Where do you think I should go and do you want to come with me?

                                                                                                  Barry Watt - 18th March 2013 (Day 1)